Superhero

My brother lost his long battle with cancer last week.

Happier Days

I was three years old when my brother Tim was born, and my earliest memories include the excitement about the arrival of a “bicentennial baby” in July 1976. For those who knew him later in life, it might come as a surprise that Tim was a pudgy little kid. He was a playful and loyal younger brother. In 1978 our family moved from New York to Seattle. We settled in the suburb of Renton, and our brother George was born there in 1979. We grew up in a tight-knit suburban neighborhood called Rolling Hills. It was a time when kids spent days playing in the backyard, riding bikes around the neighborhood, playing ball in the cul-de-sac, and wandering through the nearby woods. In most ways, ours was a pretty ordinary 1980s suburban existence. But the hints of the man that Tim would become were there when he was a kid.

Our neighborhood’s signal feature is a competition-length neighborhood pool, and from ages six through eighteen, we were all part of the neighborhood swim team with scores of other kids. George and I were decent swimmers, but Tim outshone us in and out of the pool. Eventually my younger brother broke every one of my records and many others. But far more than a competitor, Tim was a natural leader. Kids of all ages were naturally drawn to his enthusiasm, kindness, and goofy sense of humor. By his teen years, Tim could often be seen at the pool with a half-dozen kids draped all over him in some kind of game. When he became team captain, Tim knew each kid by name and had inside jokes with most. His penchant for industry and enterprise were also evident early on. He rode a paper route on his bicycle every day and socked away the money he earned. So beloved was Tim to the neighborhood kids ​that they’d often line up on curbs and doorsteps to receive their daily papers or ride along with him for fun. One neighborhood parent called Tim the “Pied Piper of Rolling Hills.”

And indeed, teenage Tim’s almost supernatural way with kids reflected something kind of magical about Tim’s entire life. Children were attracted to Tim for the same reason so many others were. He had natural empathy and an instinct for others. He had the politician’s gift of making every person he met feel important and valued.

Tim’s way of winning easy friendships was a kind of super power that amazed and perplexed me as his stern and socially awkward older brother. Later in life I came to understand the secret to Tim’s interpersonal superpower: Tim made people feel valuable because he genuinely valued them, wanted to know them, and wanted to help them.

Kids understood that about Tim intuitively.

Eventually, so did everyone else.

Those qualities carried through Tim’s teen years. He was a standout two-sport athlete in high school, was band president, homecoming king, and general big man on campus. Like his brothers, Tim eventually went to Seattle University where he graduated with a degree in finance in 1999. He was on the swim team and played varsity soccer at Seattle U. He competed in the national championship swim meet, and played on the soccer team that won Seattle U.’s first national championship in 1997. Tim formed deep and lasting friendships with classmates and teammates in those college years. He spent summers working and coaching youth swimming and soccer, which he continued into his early working life. After graduation, Tim worked in insurance and finance in the Seattle area.

Uncle Tim with Tess & Tony.

​I got married in 1997 while Tim was still in college, and when I became an expectant father I was anxious. Although he was my younger brother and still just a college student, I looked to Tim for confidence. Brother Tim became Uncle Tim in 1998 when my daughter Tess was born. Like every child, Tess adored Tim, and Tim adored her right back. My son Antonio was born two years later and soon was just as smitten.

When we moved from Seattle to Michigan in 2001, Tim sent my kids an Advent Calendar. But instead of angels, or shepherds, or stars, or crosses, or the usual Christmas stuff, each day had a picture of Tim’s face on it. Beneath each picture was a piece of chocolate. “I want the kids to associate me with good things,” he said. Tim’s trademark loving attention and goofy humor endeared them for life.

Following the old Alcoholics Anonymous advice to “fake it till you make it,” I learned to be a father by imitating my younger brother. His silly, playful and patient love for my kids helped me gain confidence as a young father—and presaged his own remarkable fatherhood.

 It turns out that making others better was another one of Tim’s superpowers. In the week since his passing, I’ve heard from more and more people stories of how Tim helped them become better human beings.

In 2004 Tim moved to San Diego. When he made the move, he told me that he fell in love with this city years before and felt drawn to it. He learned the joys of fish tacos and took up surfing. He told me once: “The best part of being a surfer is walking up and down the beach looking like a surfer.”

​To support his beach lifestyle, Tim first worked at Nordstrom before moving into mortgage banking. His combination of financial acumen and interpersonal grace made him a successful mortgage banker.

​While working at Nordstrom he​ met Lisa. Having fallen in love with this beautiful city, it should be no surprise that Tim fell in love with one of its most beautiful women.  They struck up a friendship, and then a romance, and then a marriage in 2012.

Falling in love in San Diego

In 2013 Tim finally got the chance to fulfill the role that he was meant for when Audrey Grace was born and Tim became a dad. He got to be a dad for the second time when Hannah Faith joined the fun in 2016.

Everything that made Tim the Pied Piper of Rolling Hills, an inspiring youth soccer coach, and beloved Uncle Tim emerged a thousand fold in Tim the silly daddy. Tim was a hands-on dad: reading stories, down on all fours playing with his girls, bouncing them on his knee, and generally being his attentive, affectionate self. Tim would compose silly songs extemporaneously to lend fun to everyday life. He was utterly devoted to his daughters.

Up to the highest height!

Tim became a father and a cancer patient almost simultaneously; it is impossible to appreciate what an extraordinary father he was without the context of that horrible disease.​

​Tim got his cancer diagnosis at age 36, with his first baby on the way. The cancer was quite advanced by the time it was diagnosed. Physicians gave him little hope after initial treatment, but Tim was determined to find a way to live. For the next seven years, Tim sought every angle and avenue to survive. He read voraciously. He sought second and third and fourth opinions, traveling to specialists in Seattle and Houston to help him fight his disease. At least four times over the past seven years Tim was given grim warnings that he had just months or weeks to live. Each time he defied the odds, seeking out another treatment, another therapy, another surgery, anything to keep himself alive.

​Through it all he kept an almost unbelievably positive, optimistic attitude. Privately, I know my brother was often plagued by fear and doubt, but to his friends, to me, and to my children, he was cheerful and resilient. For his girls, he was still silly daddy: trips to the beach, pool, playground, and zoo filled their days.

Selfie with Silly Daddy!

But that resilience ​carried a terrible cost.

The cancer treatments that Tim received were physically, mentally, and emotionally exhausting. Discomfort, fatigue, pain, and loss of strength and mobility were his daily reality. These were difficult adjustments for a man who had been vigorously athletic for virtually his entire life. It’s impossible to overstate just how much devotion to family kept Tim fighting cancer. As Tim was struggling to recover from another round of treatment, he told me more than once that if he were alone, or in his seventies or eighties, he would never endure the pain and indignities of cancer treatment. But in his daughters he had a reason to keep at it for the chance at another birthday, another silly song, another moment with the family that he loved so much.

​Watching him these past seven years, I learned that Tim had yet another super power: an inexhaustible reservoir of courage and will to endure where most others would give up. Paternal love was the wellspring of that courage.

Lullabies with Silly Daddy.

Last September I visited my brother in San Diego for a few days. While I was here, he got some bad news from his oncologist. Tim and I had lunch on the last day of my visit and he told me: “I’ve been dodging bullets for six years. I’m just going to have to dodge another.”

​That image stuck with me ever since. Every time someone asked me about how about Tim was doing, I told them he was dodging bullets. Tim was so strong, so resilient, so graceful and athletic—I’d smile as I imagined him dodging, weaving, dancing, almost playfully evading cancer to the squealing delight of his daughters.

​Two weeks ago I came to San Diego when Tim had been hospitalized again.​ This time there were no more therapies, no more surgeries, no more room to dodge or dance.

Among the many cruelties of coronavirus, children were forbidden from visiting the hospital. That made Tim desperate to return home where he could be with Audrey and Hannah, even as he saw the end approaching. Thank God, he was finally given permission to let us care for him at home.

​Only when I began to help care for Tim at home did I come to appreciate the true costs of Tim’s devotion. His strong, athletic frame had been decimated. In his prime, Tim was a strapping 200 pounds; in his last days I held him in my arms and he could not have been more than 130. His body was riddled with more than two dozen scars from seven years of surgeries and treatments. The terrible truth became clear: Tim had not been dodging bullets; he’d been taking them.

​Martial metaphors are cliché when describing people’s struggles with disease, but seeing, touching, and holding Tim in his last days revealed a man who had indeed been fighting in every way he could with everything he had. He wasn’t dodging or dancing, he was standing and fighting desperately for every moment another moment with his family.

​Each scar on Tim’s body was a monument to that devotion.

In his last days, Tim’s only thoughts were for his family. At times he felt like a failure for leaving them behind. In reality, Tim was victorious in creating two precious new lives and building a community, weaving a blanket of love around his family that will care for and sustain them always. In his last hour on this earth, I told him so.

Three days ago we laid my brother Tim to rest in a COVID-era service that gave a strangely sparse sendoff to an intensely social life. He was a son, a brother, a husband, and a friend. He was a leader. He was a courageous father and a silly daddy.

Tim's burial during COVID-19

And he was my hero.

​Rest easy, brother.


15 responses to Superhero

  1. Chad Seidel

    What an amazing and moving tribute to a man who was clearly more than amazing. Reading your words makes me wish I had known Tim too. May his legacy live on by those who knew and were influenced by him. I’ll start with the Advent Calendar idea… all the best to you in this tough time. Thinking of you.

  2. Sandra Russell

    Oh, Manuel, you have portrayed Tim so well that my heart is breaking all over again. Tim clearly knew how much you treasure him and he surely derived strength from that. He overcame so many seemingly insurmountable battles and is the most fierce cancer warrior I’ve ever known. His devotion to family and his fight to be with them against all odds is extraordinary and so courageous. Tim’s parting leaves a big hole in this world and we will love and miss him forever.

  3. Maribell Moran

    This is the most amazing way to get to know Tim’s heart. I met Tim when he first arrived to San Diego, and he was uncle Tim to my kids Pablo and Emely, and he was always so playful and loving. A funny story is when he moved to the first house him and Lisa bought, he gave my son some video games and told him … when I was little I wanted to play video games and was not aloud, but when I got older my mom would buy them for me… he just always had to put humor on everything. We all loved Tim since day one and will always remember him… With love from the Arellano family

  4. Lauri & Darrel Monasmith

    I am at pause…nearly unable to respond, to such amazingly beautiful & articulate words, authored by a BIG brother…who loved his LITTLE brother so very MUCH!
    Darrel & I will be waiting to hear of the date, for a “Memorial” of Tim’s life in Renton… the place he grew up…to have become the awesome son, brother, husband & dad he was.
    ALL of you will continue to be in our thoughts & prayers…
    Love, Lauri & Darrel

  5. Alan and Louise Gupta

    Dear Manuel ,
    Great well deserved tribute to Tim. He was an inspiration and role model.
    We extend our condolences to you and the family. This is one of those times that we cannot comprehend God’s will. May God help you and the family through These dark times of loss. May the many happy memories Of Tim continue to warm your hearts when times are tough.
    You are in are thoughts and prayers.
    love Louise and Alan

  6. Louise and Alan Gupta

    Dear Manuel ,
    Great well deserved tribute to Tim. He was an inspiration and role model.
    We extend our condolences to you and the family. This is one of those times that we cannot comprehend God’s will. May God help you and the family through These dark times of loss. May the many happy memories Of Tim continue to warm your hearts when times are tough.
    You are in are thoughts and prayers.
    love Louise and Alan

  7. Phyllis Roberts

    Your sharing is truly beautiful and from your heart. I met each of you as young children and followed your lives through the amazing stories your mother, my college roommate, wrote about you all in letters. Family has always been her priority and it has been Tim’s. It is obvious that each of you holds that same love and devotion for one another. What a legacy and example Tim has left of courage, strength, devotion and love. “Above all these things, put on love, which is the perfect bond of unity.” Colossians 3:12-17. Thank you for sharing your brother in such an amazing way. May God give you all strength together as you grieve Tim’s passing and support his wife, children and family.

  8. Thiago Nascimento da Silva

    I am very sorry for your loss, Manny. Your beautiful and touching words about your brother and his relationship with his family and daughters made me cry. I can see the big influence he had on you: a great character and a big heart. You and your family have my (and my family’s) deepest, sincerest sympathy. I wish you and your family strength during this time of loss.

  9. Peter Mayer

    Thanks for sharing this remembrance, Manny. Your brother meant a lot to you and you expressed your history and and relationship beautifully. Words are never sufficient at a time like this, but I will you and Tim’s family all the best. May his memory be a blessing to you forever.

  10. Annie Henson

    The truest brotherly love ever. God give his family the strength to heal, but never forget.

  11. Edna Angeles Rubi

    SIMPLY AND AWESOMELY BEAUTIFUL TRIBUTE … HE’S GONE TOO SOON!!! He will continue to be an inspiration. May he rest in love and peace.
    Much Love and prayers from the Angeles Family

    • Rey S Teodoro

      Now you know why I fondly call Manny Teodoro, my son The Professor.

  12. Rey S Teodoro

    If all of you extended family members and friends alike will see me now,
    tears are flowing down my face as I read Manny’s Tim Superhero life portrait.
    Tim excelled in genuine honesty, in friendship and professional relationships.

    Tim never missed greeting me on Father’s Day as long as I remember.
    Sunday, June 21, 2020 Father’s will not be the same.

  13. Brad Coffey

    Manny,
    For years, your work inspired me. I read your papers and blogs, listen to you at conferences and on YouTube, and awkwardly try to evangelize others with your policy proposals and passion for water equity. Thanks for lifting the curtain behind some of your inspiration and for revealing the lasting power of brotherly love. I’m so sorry for your loss.

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